What it feels like (a poem)
Surrounded by people, blind to the tension. This patchwork relationship, this marriage of convenience, is falling apart.
Surrounded by people, blind to the tension. This patchwork relationship, this marriage of convenience, is falling apart.
I have been thinking, a lot, the last two days—about who I want to be in this moment.
i am the words i speak, i’m the things i do, i’m not how i look, or the things i accrue. you try to define me with the simplest of words but i’m far beyond that, though you think it absurd.
I awaken again, to the alarm bell ringing, hit snooze just one more time. Then close my eyes, let go once more, giving in to sleep sublime.
It’s winter again, it’s snowing outside, and my soul is as dry as my hands. A frozen wasteland, no less of a desert. My heart is parched like the sands.
Beneath the black umbrella tops
their hearts beat in time
with each and every falling drop
of rain against the pine.
TW: Death
I live on land that is not mine.
Her people, long departed,
left not a trace.
Their legacy, a world in balance.
I am not like them.
Don’t tell anyone.
They can’t know about you,
that you’re different,
weird, unacceptable, unforgivable.
Don’t tell anyone.
They might think it was my fault.
filled with thought
layered in dream
lost in this place
where I can be
anyone or anything
my heart desires
or fears may bring
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